My children and I have lost so much since my husband went to prison.
We are facing Christmas without him here with us where he belongs.
My heart breaks when I think of Christmas morning and it just being me here to see them open their presents and not their Dad. They are the most adorable boys and they deserve their family together at Christmas.
They will see their Grandparents, my lovely inlaws who are there for us all right now. However, they won’t see their Aunties or cousins as my family have turned their backs on us when we are going through such pain.
Today I have been shopping for some last minute bits. I’ve been fighting back the tears as I listen to Christmas music and try not to think that the last Christmas I wasn’t with my husband was 1998 the year before we met. Think of how it will be the first Christmas the boys haven’t had their Dad here in 11 years for my youngest and 16 for my eldest 😭😭.
I came home to a missed parcel card from royal mail. It said there is a parcel next door. I couldn’t think of anything I had ordered and haven’t already recieved.
I picked up the parcel and my neighbours teenage daughter said that it is ‘heavy’.
The parcel is from a very special lady who I met in 2020, when we both joined reached out to Lucy Faithful, trying to make some sort of sense of how our husbands had been led to offending online.
I came home and opened it. That’s when the tears started to flow and haven’t stopped.
Since then, we have our little WhatsApp group with the other ladies and we speak daily. This lady in particular sends us a daily positive quote that is sent by her Auntie. It lifts my spirits each day.
This AMAZING lady is having her own battle to get her husband back home where he belongs. However, since my Husband went to prison, she and the other ladies have been there for me every step of the way.
In October 2021 we all met in person, at a central point as we are scattered accross England. We cried and hugged when we met as we have been though such a journey together.
The parcel, well it contains a bottle of wine and many little wrapped up gifts for the boys and I. I sobbed when I took each one out of the box. I haven’t even unwrapped anything yet.
I won’t get a gift this year off my husband and I’m pretty sure I won’t get anything off family aside from maybe my Brother in law who has been the only one who hasn’t punished me for my husbands offence.
So these gifts and gesture from my amazing friend, means more than she will ever know.
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