It wasn’t me

It wasn’t me is a hash tag that is used on Twitter to identify the innocent children who’s parents are in prison. This is very apt.

This applies to non-offending partners like me too.

For those who follow my blogs, thank you for listening. I know I may sound like a broken record right now but getting my thoughts and feelings out there to be heard is very empowering for me.

Yesterday my Brother in law and niece visited and we exchanged Christmas presents. My Brother in law is the only family member on my side that I am in touch with. He is the only one who understands and accepts my decision to stand by my Husband. I am extremely grateful for his support.

He didn’t intentionally tell me anything about the rest of the family but in conversation I asked a couple of questions.

One of my nieces had a baby in November and they met her around Christmas time. Her eldest sister and partner are due to have a baby at the end of this month.

I have a very large family. Many new great nieces and nephews have been born in recent years. These are 2 new children I will never meet.

Prior to my Husbands arrest, I would be the one going to visit as soon as I possibly could with cards, flowers and gifts for the new baby.

I am still that person.

I know I could send them anyway but I can’t handle any further rejection to be honest.

I know I could hate my husband for having done this to our life. Yes the crime was his but he is currently behind bars, locked in his cell for 22/23 hours per day, paying for his crime.

I am being punished by the people that are supposed to love me.

It feels very unfair and very unjust.

#itwasntme 😢😭💔😢😭💔